Update on creative endeavours.😁

 

When I had the brain hemorrhage, I never gave it a thought when I finally got on the ward, and sent for some of my art stuff. It was only after I had been working on my painting that it sort of dawned on me that maybe I won’t be able to draw the same as before…. The painting/ drawing was very free and loose. That was it, drawing no 5 came out and much to my relief the drawing skills were still there, but weirdly, better and much easier than for as long as I can remember…. I did a bit, but my head was still sore, I also had a card to make and a painting to do.

I finished the drawing on the 28th September after a good resting period at home. 😁 I don’t have a title for this one, as I don’t for no 1 and 2.

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Later that day, I started drawing no 6. 😁 I decided to do a sea dragon and did a fair bit of it before calling it a day.

On the 2nd of October I decided to do some more of the drawing, which I’ve worked on since, adding a merman and finishing it today. 😁.

The drawing is titled, ” ‘Erman the merman. ”

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I really enjoyed doing this one, there was a also a new appreciation within. Not only are all my skills intact, the drawing seems a doddle in comparison to before I had the brain hemorrhage… Also no headache only the pre existing sore head from 2 ops. With which there are good days and days where I still have to rest up.

I might have another go of my guitar, but first some food methinks.

Have a beautiful day! 😁

Jen. XXX.

 

 

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Subarachnoid hemorrhage.

On Friday the 31st August I had a subarachnoid hemorrhage. I was busy in the back garden, when suddenly I felt nauseous. I had to stop what I was doing and just go in. To cut a long story short, after a bout of sickness I suddenly felt this pressure in my head and my ears started to ring louder and louder, it felt like they were going to burst and the pressure in my head, that also felt like it would pop. I’ve had some wicked headaches over the years disabling ones, this felt like one of them to begin with… This one though, something told me it wasn’t right.,. I went and lay down, assuming my normal position with one of them headaches, of my head pushed back tightly into my neck to try and stem the pounding that is mind blowingly painful and breathing rapidly through my mouth, so I won’t be sick…. I remember coughing and the pain it caused me, Stephen heard it and came up to the bed, said it didn’t sound right.Β  I asked him to get an ambulance…..

I don’t really remember much after that until I came around in ITU. I tried to sit up, but was told I couldn’t….

I had two coils put in two anourisms in the front left side, in that operation, they found five anourisms all in all. The front two and one of the back ones were big. The other 2, also in the back, are much smaller. They coiled the larger back one two weeks later.

Miraculously I have no brain damage! I passed all the tests!😁 I feel so blessed, I can’t put into words the gratitude I feel! I can still draw, paint, play guitar, ( that took a little bit of working at to remember my songs and flow them together.. )

I’m still a bit weak, so no heavy gardening or household stuff for a while. It’s light duties for me… ( Yawn… So boring…) πŸ˜‰ I’ll behave myself though, because those surgeons saved my life, not only that, I have no brain damage! How clever are they, the mind boggles!!!Β πŸ˜πŸ˜‚πŸ˜Ά

I started a picture just before all this happened, I finished it in the hospital.. 😁

It’s calledΒ  ” New begginings. ” Seemed a fitting title.

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I met some beautiful people on that ward, will never forget them. πŸ™‚Β I plan to get in touch with the onesΒ  that gave me their contact details again, once I’m back on form. πŸ™‚

I also did a couple of other little paintings in there. πŸ˜‰

Talk about a bolt out of the blue and life changing event!!!Β  Didn’t see that one coming, but it gave me insights and life lessons I couldn’t have envisioned…

I’ve been home for two weeks now, I slept for the first week, and ate and ate and ate….. when I was awake, I lost a bit of weight, went below the BMI rate. Hopefully all the stuffing of my face will soon sort that one out. 😁🍩🍠πŸͺ🍰🍬 That’s only between healthy stuff though. πŸ™„ We’ll they said I need to put weight on..😏

Right on that note, I’m feeling a little peckish, mmm…. Oooeerrr Ice cream!!! 😁

See you later😁 …… 😘 πŸ’ž πŸ’¨πŸ’¨πŸ’¨πŸ’¨

XXX.

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Life, thoughts and creative endeavours

Firstly, my apologies for again getting wrapped up in life events and creativity and neglecting to update here sooner. I found out that a long standing friend and fellow artist, passed away at home on his own, it knocked me for sure. I’d known him for around three decades and we went to many art events, previews etc in those years, a true gentleman and a character, he’ll be missed by us. This cover version below, is a song that he liked, so I taught myself the lyrics and chords yesterday and uploaded it this morning. I also had a couple of other people I care about in mind too, who like the song.

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After my last post, I got the dreaded lurgy, that malingered for a while, two weeks roughly. Since then, when able, I’ve been catching up on domestics, doing a spring clear out, decorating the front bedroom and a bit more of drawing no 5 for the colouring book. I’ve not finished either yet, but here’s a couple of pics below, the ceiling is done in oil paint, I’ve yet to finish the walls etc.

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Well spring is finally here and that means the gardens are coming to life. I’ve done a bit of planting up etc already. I plan to get stuck in to my den again. Between all the rain and recovering from that lurgy, I’ve not done much at all on it. Sure I’ll be on a roll again out there soon though. πŸ™‚

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I have been in hide mode since my last post really, my apologies to friends who haven’t heard from me. When things trouble me, or I feel under the weather, I tend to hide away and wrap myself up in the comfort of my creativity, that’s how I deal with stuff and life can get a bit overwhelming at times can’t it. πŸ™‚ I feel blessed that I have this release, the gifts given to me, the life I still have. Colin would want me to utilise every moment I’m able in my creative endeavours. There was a lot, I know he wanted to try, but never got around to it, now it’s too late for him….

Right on that note, I’m off to do a bit more on my drawing. One final pic, of two of my bestest mates who bring a smile to my face daily, this pic is so typical of them, brotherly love at its finest. 😍

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How cute are they! They melt me, bless. πŸ™‚.

Right my drawing awaits!

Have a beautiful day. πŸ™‚

Jen. XXX. 🎨

 

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Update on creative endeavours etc. πŸ™‚

Firstly, my apologies for any comments etc, I’ve not responded to yet. I’ve been on a creative roll when able. I will respond soon and do appreciate the lovely feedback and having a read here of other spaces etc.πŸ™‚Β I have to roll with the creative ATM though, as it comes in waves, so to speak and leaves me with mush for a brain outside of it, hehe. πŸ™‚

I did start out on the back garden before I got rained off, then that cold front came in. Wow extreme for here at this time of year, spring definitely had sprang off there! I have a lot of birds and resident squirrels in my back garden, as I feed them. The cold days were spent mainly making sure they had food and water. The water was icing over very quickly etc. When I saw all the fledglings etc, coming out, it made it more than worthwhile. πŸ˜€Β ” It were bitter though. ” πŸ˜‰.

Below are two pics, firstly, one of the back garden in the snow. It was taken from my bedroom window on the first morning I woke up to it. The second pic, is a taste of what’s to come. πŸ˜€

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I’ve still a way to go, but it’s survived all weather so far, which gives me confidence for sure haha. πŸ˜€

On the drawing front, I’ve started drawing no five for my colouring book. πŸ™‚ I don’t have a title so far. Drawing one and two remain untitled. Whether any will come through, I’ve yet to see, not all my work is titled, me being me. πŸ™‚

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I’m really enjoying drawing this one, I had to drag myself away from it to write this post. 😡

Right, on that note, best I crack on, have a beautiful day/eve!

Jen. XXX. πŸ™‚

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Thoughts… πŸ™‚

Photo1528Β In recent posts, I have mentioned the autistic spectrum. Autistic/Artistic, not much difference between the two words and they really do go hand in hand, where I’m concerned.

I feel there’s been a lot of bad press about autism, but ” autistic spectrum ” really is just that and is unique to each individual.

I can only speak from a personal point of view, but, I will try to give some insight right from the horses mouth, so to speak πŸ˜‰

I had always felt different, for as long as I have memories. I hid behind my gifts, I always felt like an idiot in conversation with others, also when my mind wouldn’t sometimes take in information.

It could be days sometimes before information etc processed. I wasn’t slow by any means, just where conveying back information elequently was concerned. I also struggled not to butt in, when someone was talking. This wasn’t just anxiety related, although throughout the years, anxiety reigned more predominantly. I would try to get something across before my mind ditched it and was onto the next thought. I call it mind chatter. It became much easier to stay away from people in the end.

Who I was, didn’t have a label, neither was the physical discomfort I was in, I was just like my mam and she just soldiered on, even to this day, so I never questioned any of it.

My mam found relief and joy doing interior design in the home, she could make anything, build anything, decorate, lay floors, make clothes and shoes, her knowledge knew no bounds in our little world, she was also a perfectionist in every thing she undertook. She taught me well. ( πŸ˜“πŸ˜¬πŸ˜΅ Only joking hehe. 😁 )

We were all amazed once when she went to town on her own, thought she was really brave. It bring tears to my eyes having seen the years of suffering and her battle through the lot. She made sure, knowing I was of a similar nature, that I had those same strengths, giving up wasn’t in her volcabulary.

We were taught that knowledge is power, also love, kindness, empathy, compassion etc.

Some of it seems at odds with the autism spectrum doesn’t it. Amongst ourselves we literally communicate our own way. We all interrupt each other and diversify from any given topic but we get each other most of the time. My son, sussed it out. His words ” Our minds work too quickly and can appear fragmented and appear to diversify from the subject matter, but down the line, it’s all relative to the given conversation at the time. ” He’s patient, so patient hehe. 😊 Bless. 😁

My creativity is now considered a compulsion, I would call it, devotion, channeling, being at one and literally being on an ethereal level, magical, mystical and wonderous. It’s like existing in another reality and is very addictive. I spoke through my creativity, have lived and breathed it, a mission I set out to achieve on my own. My thoughts as a child? Others taught themselves, so why couldn’t I and do it my way? I could be easily put off things, so someone teaching me was a non starter, after all they were only people like me and it meant doing all of the above, I’ve mentioned.

I felt equal to others in my creativity, could speak with knowledge about it. I had worked so hard to achieve anything, I also had issues there, still do. My hands would jerk, lines would be shaky, my body would go ridged and my jaw would lock, trying to get out what was inside. A bad headache always followed, really bad.. just like my mam… She over rode it all, or would be on the bed really poorly, so I never questioned it and followed suit.

I don’t really plan to mention the rest of my family here, I feel it’s not my place or business to. I only mention my mam, as the way she was, is so relative to the person I am today.

I’m going to finish for now, but I would like to add something. Just because autistic people are wired differently, don’t underestimate their minds, it’s communicating they can have difficulty with, amongst other things. Some have amazing minds and each one is a total individual in their own right. I have noted since my official diagnoses, that some seem to perceive that my mind isn’t on their level and try to speak to me accordingly, I find this very irritating, I am still the same person. Also autism, is not mental illness, ( Please note I’m in no way doing mental health down in any way ) Autism is a type of persona and there are many qualities too, that are directly related to that persona.

Another of my ” compulsions ” is,Β  the workings of the mind and emotions. Β I also have learned many life lessons along the way, that make me who I am today and I now embrace ALL of me, warts and all. After all, we can only know our own reality. Life is what we make it after all and it can be a beautiful journey, it’s how we ourselves perceive it to be.

I’ve found a way to communicate my thoughts, right here. Takes a while but I muddle through and get there in the end.Β πŸ™‚

Feel free to ask me anything about any of the above. If there’s a delay in me replying, it’ll be either, I’m on a creative endeavour, or I’m burned out and not able. 😴 I will get back to you at some point though. πŸ™‚.

Have a beautiful day/eve

Jen. XXX. πŸ™‚

 

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Life eh….. πŸ™‚

I’ve not done much, other than domestics and family stuff since my last post. Thank you for the feedback, it’s very much appreciated. πŸ™‚ Below is a not so clear shot of my drawings so far for the intended book. It’s nice being back here, didn’t realise how much I missed it. πŸ™‚ A lot has happened since I was last here properly. Even though I was the one suffering, it still shocked me, just how much had gone to shite in my body, it was a proper wake up call… I’ve worked on these issues since and my creativity really did take a back seat.

I have a couple of people to thank, firstly Nikki, she has a space here. Nikki put me into a site which dealt with female autism ran by Tania A Marshall M.Sc.

I never dreamed that what challenges I had on a physical level was linked to the autistic spectrum… They are it seems….

Here’s a link to her page explaining the above in detail. Not all applies to me, but a significant part of it does.

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After many tests etc and assessments, all was officially recognised and life is much improved as a result, so my appreciation for these two women, knows no bounds as it changed my life for the better. πŸ™‚

Now I’m more mindful where my creativity is concerned, knowing now how the work affects my physical well being. Hence the break from drawing and painting etc to date.

I’m still me though, labels by others don’t change that fact. πŸ™‚ Just wish I could magic myself instantly better, especially the physical side, as it really slows me down, which can be frustrating for a mind like mine. πŸ™‚

But I’m still here and thankful to be! So it’s onwards and upwards, I plan to finish what I started here. πŸ™‚

Love and peace your way have a beautiful day/eve!

Jen. XXX. πŸ™‚

 

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New drawing, ” Light warrior, leap of faith. “

 

Sorry it’s been a while again since my last post, time soon passes eh. πŸ™‚ I have nearly completed drawing number four, ” Light warrior, a leap of faith. ” The male warrior, represents the masculine energy within, which, I believe is to do with action, doing, etc, if I’m correct. Anyway, the warrior is taking a leap of faith in the drawing. I just have some detail to put in on the warrior and bird.

I plan to do more of them, I’m thinking around twelve drawings. Once completed, I will get the images printed, then I can paint or colour the original drawings, taking plenty of progression images along the way.

The drawings are quite complex, so I feel a guide on how to fill them in will help. I plan to have a book made with all of the above, along with text, detailing the inspiration etc, behind each one. πŸ™‚ Sooooo I’m a third of the way there now with the drawings. So there’s still a way to go yet. πŸ™‚

We’ve had a fair bit of rain, so I haven’t done much with the den the last few weeks, but we are one day nearer to spring with each passing day and I’m looking forward to getting back to it very soon. πŸ™‚

I want to reach a certain point with it, before I put pics up. It’s been a real slow progress, bit like the turtle from the story, ” The turtle and the hare. ” Who won the race though? πŸ™‚ It’s been a bit of trial and error but it’s taking shape now. Again, I have a way to go, but Rome wasn’t built in a day eh and you know me….. πŸ˜‰πŸ˜Š

Right, best crack on, things to do and folks to see. πŸ™‚

Have a beautiful day/eve

Jen. XXX πŸ™‚

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My apologies for not managing to  write a post before Christmas and a belated Christmas wish to you. Christmas was especially lovely this year, my lad cooked dinner for the family and a good time was had by all. 😊

My heart and thoughts go to folk that have it tough this time of year, people who have lost loved ones, people who don’t have homes etc, myΒ  love and prayersΒ  for all these poor souls. Makes me feel extremely blessed and lucky, that happiness prevailed here…

I was hoping to get some pics of the back garden etc, but I couldn’t get finished, what I wanted to finish out there, the weather being the way it is. I still have a fair way to go out there, but like to finish certain jobs before I take updated pics.

Now I have my glasses etc, I can feel my mind veering towards the drawing and painting again. It’s been a while since I did any, I still have my “Ekata” painting to finish and I want to do another drawing towards my future colouring book. I feel a seascape or landscape painting is long overdue too. Once the new year is out of the way, I plan to get stuck in, all being well.

 

I hope you have a wonderful new year, may next year bring more love, joy and prosperity for all of us.

Jen. XXX ☺️

 

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Update…

Wow, time flies doesn’t it! 2 posts in as many years and again it’s already 11 days since I posted that I’m back! Things have changed a bit around here, especially within myself. Life’s good, family are all ok etc. I’m a lot more laid back now and the creativity did take a back seat, still does to an extent. I consider myself retired and just appreciate each and every day I’m here. πŸ˜‰

Things are still slowly going forward though and it has been a long time since I posted up to date pics, so I guess the difference will show. I have a couple of jobs to do though, before I take them, but it should be soon now hopefully. πŸ˜‰ In the meantime, here’s a reminder of how the garden looked etc, when I was last about hereπŸ˜‰.

Have a beautiful day/eve, Jen. XXX.Photo1148Photo1653Photo1662Photo1654Photo1649Photo1647Back gardenCentral top of fireplace

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I’m back πŸ˜‰πŸ˜˜ XXX.

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